loser. Have you ever felt that at some point in your life?

Who’s gonna take you home? Who’s gonna cradle you to sleep. Who’s gonna hug you when you are scared? Who will be there when you want to eat cloud-9 bars when you’re sad? Who will understand you?

That person will be the last person that will ever hurt me. That person will be the last person to kick the hell out of me.

Knew the signs
Wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool

So confused, my heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused, my heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you’ll be out of my mind
And I’ll be over you

But now I’m
So confused, my heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn’t see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there for me

i’m broken. and i need help.   

usually. usual. most likely. definite. certainly not but most probably. probably not but most definitely.

crossroad. another crossroad.

i just want to stand in two places at a time now. as in now.  as in really now. 

sitting here. just sitting here. and i’m still here.

another non-sense from me.

That’s how my mind works. That’s how i think. And that’s how my life runs. I think i’m the most problematic medical student right now. Instead of reviewing for my biochemstry shifting exam, I’m here wandering, staring blank and listening to the pleasant sound of the construction workers outside banging walls and throwing bricks.

You know the film, You’ve got mail? i think i’v watched that for more than 50 times and I just can’t seem to get a hang of it.  Wouldn’t it be nice if you met someone and fall in love without meeting that person?

“Bakit ambagal?”  Is she referring to me? or to the notebook she is using? Ambagal na ng utak ko. Ako ata ang mabagal. Tx: another apck of life support. VOgue.

I think I’m gonna die tonight.

I want white roses and black balloons.

pretty funny how id start my first post here,,  gudluck,, im here now in Cavite with my friends,, and im fuming with feelings i just cant explain,, yeah yeah i know im weird,,  i know im not supposed to be here,, my friends are to get milk form moms and from cows for their medical research,, and me? look out,, hehe,, im here to bug them off and to share moments with them,, bad girl puchie,, i said no to a task given by our research leader to join my friends,, well,, people sometimes do bad things,, not really bad because i already said yes to my friends and besides, the task is impossible,, 

know how sometimes people get to be so irritating and you just wanna box them off? hell, im not in any position to give out comments of other people’s problem but sometimes i just can’t help it..

 naiinis ako. literal.

oh eto pa,,

i’m missing someone that im not supposed to miss,,  u know how hard that is???  ur like a jerk who keeps on thinking about that  person knowing that, that person isn’t even thinking of you right now,,  another hell,, it’s worse than being toxic at school…

 yeah im with my friends now but the feeling of screaming inside====== attacks again..

how can you forget someone in the middle of vulnerability and passion? weird eh? it is.. 2 am and energy is high,,  signs of sleep is no where in sight,,

eto funny,, d ko to notebook so iv got to cut this short,, na sha shy na ko eh,, hahaha,,

bad start here, i know.